Today was the first day back to my normal routine after what feels like almost a week (it probably hasn’t been, but it feels like it!). And wouldn’t you know it, the market was a real douche and we were constantly battling each other all day. And the market ALWAYS wins, so I don’t know why I even bothered putting up a fight. Sighhhhh…. So I’m back to feeling like I have no idea what I’m doing. It’s this constant rollercoaster ride of emotion. One day I’ll feel like “Yes! I’ve got this!”; and then the next day, the market hammers you into submission, and you’re back to feeling like a total noob and having no idea what the hell you’re doing. I don’t think the emotional aspect of trading will ever go away completely; I think you just learn to manage it better. So I was basically screaming at the screen all day arghhh!! Faaaantastic. I just love these sorts of days. I much prefer the days when I feel totally zen and at one with the market. So on top of being physically drained the past few days, I was mentally drained today as well. Both self inflicted, I know 😔
So I did about half an hour of meditation to calm down (although I really should meditate before starting the trading day…! It really does help me to focus and relax), and then walked down to the grocery store to buy some food for dinner. That made me feel a bit better.
And on an even brighter note: my new practice shoes from Supadance arrived today! I haven’t had these shoes in YEARS!! I thought they stopped making them years ago, so I stopped searching for them. But somehow I came across them again, and so of course I decided to buy them again.
This style was my very first pair of dance shoes! But after having danced for quite a few years since owning my first pair, I have come to realise their limitations: since they’re really for beginners and/or social dancers, they’re not really good for either Ballroom OR Latin! hahaha ie they don’t really provide enough support in the heel area for Ballroom; and they restrict your toes for Latin so you don’t get a proper grip of the floor, nor do they show your lines. Isn’t that fantastic, lol. But I didn’t buy them for nostalgic reasons (that was just a bonus 😊), I bought them for practice. I don’t like practising both styles wearing either just my Ballroom or my Latin shoes at socials, nor do I like constantly changing shoes in line with the change in song/style. So I figured because these shoes are effectively an amalgamation of a Ballroom and a Latin shoe, they’ll be good enough to practice in. So let’s see how I go with these, given their limitations and the fact that I am more adept at the two styles now compared to when I first started dancing many moons ago 😃