Multi-pronged progress

Today was one of those days where I felt like I moved forward in almost all of my goals. I didn’t get obsessed with making progress on just one or two of them, to the detriment of the others, which is what I normally do. Not all of my goals were touched on today, but enough of them moved forward that I feel like it’s been a very productive day.

Work – I finally had a profitable trading day, after so many losing days in a row. Not that I felt happy. I probably felt relief more than anything else: relief that I am not completely hopeless at this. Maybe this is the start of my feeling more detached with the outcome of my trades?? πŸ€” Tick.

Languages – Did some review of old words and grammar structures, and learnt a few new ones. Tick.

Reading – I read a bit more of my new book The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Tick.

Finances – Paid some bills and organised a few things on this front. Tick.

Family / Home – FaceTimed my parents and learnt a new recipe from my mum, which I tried today – and it actually turned out! That’s a first! πŸ˜‚ Tick.

Home – Ran a few errands this morning, and did a few other things around the house. Tick. I intend to do a few more things around the house tomorrow, so this should be a double tick by then.

So not a bad day. Not a bad day at all πŸ‘


Reading while in this slump

The crap trading continues. It just feels like whatever I do, I just get it wrong. Sighhh… It’s so demoralising. I just wish this slump would end soon, so my work life can get back to normal πŸ˜”

So to distract myself, I read my book The Last Mrs Parrish. And went searching for a new book, coz I finished this one 😊 It actually wasn’t too bad. I didn’t find it as “cannot-put-it-down” as much as other books, but it was still pretty good.

I decided to go for a light-hearted read for my next one, so I’ve gone for The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. Well, I’m assuming it’s a light-hearted read, since it’s young adult fiction, but it does apparently touch on rather heavy issues such as rape, drug use and sexuality exploration and discovery. So let’s see just how “light” this book actually is…! 😳

And we finished the evening with a few episodes of Game of Thrones. Season seven is short, so we’ll easily finish it this week. What should we move on to next… πŸ€”

A mental health day

I took the day off to give myself a bit of a break from trading. A mental health day, as we called them, back in my previous industry. I’d like to get my mental health back in order before returning to the trading screen on Monday. I hope other industries are embracing the importance of these days as well.

I wanted to have a local breakfast this morning, but all the kopitiams (coffee shops) near our place were packed as, with locals having their daily breakfast, I suppose. So that left me no choice but to have a western breakfast.

The cafe where I ended up was having cash register issues, so when I went to go pay, things were going awry. So the staff member exclaims “Alamak! The receipt won’t print!” And continues to say alamak a few more times until they finally get a receipt printed for me. That’s the first time I’ve heard alamak said in real life! It was used a number of times in that book I read recently, Crazy Rich Asians, by Kevin Kwan, a Singaporean author. And I’ve seen it mentioned in Singlish related stuff. So from these, I knew how it was used, but up until today, it’s just been an academic word for me. So it was rather exciting to actually hear it in real life – and with so much frustration from the speaker as well, it just really brought the expression to life! πŸ˜†

After breakfast / brunch, I went to Gardens by the Bay, like I said I would. It was the first day of Tulipmania in the Flower Dome, and I was very excited to go see it today 🌷🌷

Until I actually got there. The display was a bit too artistic for me, it just went over my head. I just didn’t quite get it 😐

Are they meant to represent certain people? The Dutch people, perhaps? The eyelids actually opened and closed on some of them, which was also a little freaky.Β I don’t get it… I just don’t get it…

Despite the odd display, the flowers were very pretty, as they always are, so wandering through both the Flower Dome and Cloud Forest raised my spirits.

I then did a bit of wandering around the shops on Orchard Road, before heading home and relaxing for the rest of the evening. We were supposed to practice tonight, but N is still not feeling all that great, his cold is still lingering around πŸ˜”

We have a comp tomorrow, but we’ve barely practiced in the past few weeks, with me first having the cold, and now him. If we hadn’t already registered and paid, I’d pull out of this comp, to be honest. Our dancing probably won’t reflect what we can actually do, and it’ll just make me feel disappointed if we don’t dance to the best of our abilities. It’s not about the results – like I’ve said before, we always rank poorly against the specialists anyway, so we’re used to not placing well. But it’s when we don’t – or can’t – give our all that will be more disappointing. Sigh. Oh well, it can’t be helped. We just have to make the most of tomorrow. Who knows, maybe the lack of practice will let us ease up and just enjoy the performance tomorrow, rather than get all bogged down in the technical detail, like we usually doπŸ˜†

Different businesses

The Grab driver and I were chatting in his car on the way to the vet this morning. He was saying how he wasn’t getting many rides at all yesterday and today that he’s not even covering the rental for the car. Awww! That’s terrible! I know how that feels, when you’re going backwards πŸ˜” Just look at yesterday’s post πŸ˜‚ I hope his business picks up for him today 🀞

I had my usual FX seminar today again. It’s funny how something that started out as something so new and unfamiliar has become so normal and routine now. The concierge, the receptionist, the presenter, other regular seminar attendees and I all recognise each other now. Omg and I think even one of the building cleaners knows me now too! Total cray cray.

I can also recite the format of his presentation, it never changes – and rightfully so. One of the main (and also one of the most challenging) points of trading is consistency. He has this down to a T 😊

It was very packed today, not sure why. A lot of new faces. Maybe the organisers did a massive advertising push this past week? Again, I was lucky to get a seat at one of the tables. The room is set up in a classroom setting down the centre, with seats lining the sides of the room. A few people were sitting down the sides today, which doesn’t happen often. Shows how many people were there today!

At the end of the session, the presenter said that the organisers have a little promotion going, and went on to tell us all about it. I wonder if that’s why there were all those new people there today…. 😊

But of course, my crappy trading continues πŸ˜” So I am taking myself away from the screen and taking the day off tomorrow. I will still read, review my trades, maybe do some demo trades, but I am not allowed to put on any live trades. All these losses are having an effect on me psychologically, so I need to try and get myself back on track before I do. Hopefully I’ll be back to normal on Monday.

But first, perhaps a visit to Gardens by the Bay tomorrow is warranted… 🌺😊πŸ₯€


I sat in the living room this evening, in the dark, wallowing in my own self pity. I had a bad trading day, and I was just feeling all sorry for myself. I have to figure out a way to not get so emotionally involved with my trades. But when you’re facing three losing trades in a row, after having a similar day yesterday, things start to really play on your mind. Sighhh… If I have another loss day tomorrow, I’m calling it quits for the week and doing something completely unrelated on Friday. Maybe a trip to Gardens by the Bay. That never fails to cheer me up 😊

Speaking of which, when are they displaying the next theme? It’s Tulipmania time! My favourite flower! 🌷🌷🌷

Oooh it starts on Friday! How timely is that?! (Not that I’m hoping for a loss day tomorrow or anything…! 😳)

I did some laundry today, and when I went to go hang up the clothes, there was all this lint everywhere. That’s when I realised that I left a tissue in one of my pockets, which I don’t normally do. It’s just because I had that stupid cold last week 🀧 Grrr!

Faaantastic day πŸ˜‚ Let’s hope for a funner day tomorrow 🀞


Just as I am getting better, N gets sick πŸ˜” He had a packed diary today, which included a client meeting, so he ended up going to work for that – and then in the end, he didn’t have to go to the client meeting anyway. Argh. He could’ve stayed home and got some rest today 😠 We’re not having much luck with our health leading up to this next comp! πŸ˜”

I was actually suffering a bit of the Monday morning blues today. I think I continued to feel the effect of the bad trading days on Thursday and Friday last week – despite the nice weekend in between! But luckily I turned that around a little today, which made me feel a little better.

And we watched another episode of Game of Thrones to end the evening. We’re almost at the end of season five! I’ve decided that I actually do want to catch up with the rest of the world, so that I can then move on to another series while we all wait for season eight to be produced 😊

At the moment I’m thinking of watching Stranger Things. The other series that is actually on my to-watch list is Downton Abbey, but I don’t think N would enjoy watching that one… And the other one I want to watch is Gilmore Girls… so perhaps we’ll stick to Stranger Things for now πŸ˜‚

Relaxed and carefree

I woke up today feeling so relaxed and carefree. It’s a Saturday, and we have no Chinese class, no dancing competition, no dance lesson, nothing. We were free πŸ˜‚ I sometimes forget what it’s like to have a free day, until one rolls around and greets me warmly with open arms πŸ€—

We took our time leaving the house, simply because we could 😊 I read a bit more of one of my other books, Three Wishes by Liane Moriarty. The book is set in Sydney, so in similar vein to Crazy Rich Asians which is set in Singapore, it was cool reading all the familiar places in Sydney that I know intimately well. Harbour Bridge, George Street, The Rocks, the Fish Markets, Anzac Bridge… I felt like I was almost back there. It doesn’t take much effort for me to conjure up images of the city and visualise myself going around. I know it too well. So I could easily picture the characters in the book walking/driving around and basically just leading their fictional lives.

We then went and had lunch at this Japanese restaurant down the road. I think this place will become one of our regular haunts. The food is really good. Plus it’s owned / run by Japanese people, so they’re very polite. And of course I can practice my Japanese while we’re there 😊

They also have a collection of Japanese manga on their shelves, which customers can read while they’re in the restaurant. I have come to think that reading manga is one of the funner ways to learn a foreign language. I just need to find a series to get into, which is not only good for someone learning the language, but also a genre that I would really enjoy – and hence persevere and push through the obvious reading difficulties!

After lunch, we made our way to the annual Pet Expo! I love going to the Expo, if only just to see the competitions that they hold. Today we happened to sit in front of an Aussie judge who was judging some of my favourite breeds: Maine Coone, Exotic Shorthair, Persian, and British Shorthair. Only problem is, N is allergic to cats! He even reacts to Kitty sometimes πŸ˜” He was saying how he should’ve brought a mask with him to the Expo today 😷 Well we did sit right in front of the judge, so that probably didn’t help matters!

After the Expo, I went home to rest while N went over to our friends’ place for dinner. I was invited too, but since his wife and kids were still overseas, I figured I’d give the two boys some boy time πŸ˜‚ Plus I wanted to get a bit more rest, since this cold is still lingering around 🀧 And we have a comp in a week’s time, so not much resting is going to happen between now and then, so I figured I should take any opportunity to rest up while I can.

Remember the daily mantra that I mentioned back in January? Well I completely forgot about it (already! 😳), and only just remembered it last night. So I reinstated it today: “no trading”. I wasn’t allowed to read anything about trading, no books, no blogs; I wasn’t allowed to review my trades; and I wasn’t even allowed to think about trading. I’m getting unhealthily obsessed, and that’s not a good thing. So I’m telling myself to take the day off. Heck, probably the whole weekend off. My brain needs to switch off and have absolutely nothing to do with trading for just a few days; I want to come back to it fresh on Monday.

So I’m distracting myself this weekend, gaining traction on my other goals instead 😊